I suppose there are some good things associated with a new week starting. The first being that I’ve joined a new church. Officially, since 2002 I’ve been an Episcopalian; however, I’ve been distanced from the church with all the internecine struggles since the elevation of the Rt. Rev. Eugene Robinson to the Epsicopate. Though I’m heterosexual, truth of the matter is, I believe the ECUSA was right and the communion as a whole has been wrong on this one. First off, St. Paul never discussed homosexuality, he discussed pederasty which is completely different and no church I know of will accept and defend that. Second, this is an easy thing to accept. If you believe that G_d made all people and they are perfect as they are made, then shouldn’t it serve to reason, it created homosexuals along side heterosexuals and found both to be good? If that’s the case, then why would a human be created that would not share in the divine call in any way? I keep thinking if the Christians were right, there would have to be a new burning bush moment with a monologue consisting of “I AM and I made them, I find them perfect and acceptible as I made them. Get over it and live in love and harmony with one another.”
My wife introduced me to the merry band which is the Unitarian Universalists and in signing the book tonight, officially, I’m no longer Episcopalian, I’m a Unitarian Universalist. I don’t look any different and I don’t really feel any different, but I suppose that’s the heretic in me. I will always be myself and the labels may stand or fall as they wish. I can accept being a member of and working within this congregation and they have shown they are willing to accept me for who I am. That makes me very comfortable.
In three days, there will be another hearing as to where the custody issues stand. I am nervous as always with respect to this. I hate having to be in court just because her attorney wants to make hay that I have a real job and work for a living while she gets to play when she wants because it’s part time nonsense.
Well, we had court yesterday. Takes me a while to do some of this I guess and she got a lot of what she wants for now. It seems, some days, as though my attorney is working to protect her interests as diligently if not moreso than mine. It gets frustrating because I go in with an agenda in mind and having talked to him before we got there and then I feel like the rug got pulled out from underneath me.
I suppose it doesn’t hurt that I ended up in the court room alone with her and her mother. I end up very nervous, uncomfortable, and I can’t freaking breathe. There are times I don’t wonder if she and her attorney don’t know that and try to take advantage of it. Last night I felt like I’d been sledge hammered in the chest and it’s still tight today. Nothing much I can do about it other than just remember if I’m still breathing, I’m not dead.
I have more additions to my email lists. I should catch up with Sharon and see what’s new and how she’s doing. I owe Shawna a more detailed conversation than the 2 minutes she catches me here and there.
I will get caught up on this and maybe find time to play. Of course, my favourite play site these days is Colour Lovers It’s a fun place to explore and play with colour, pattern, and palettes to see what will work where. My best work so far may be Victorian Wallpaper…..
Cheers